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♥GUNDAM SEED
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♥GUNDAM SEED/DESTINY - THE CHOSEN FUTURE
♥POKEMON ADVANCED/BATTLE FRONTIER
♥POKEMON BEST WISHES!
♥TSUBASA RESEVOIR CHRONICLE
♥TSUBASA RESEVOIR CHRONICLE SEASON 2
♥TSUBASA TOKYO REVELATIONS (OVA)
♥TSUBASA SHUNRAIKI (OVA)
♥OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOSTCLUB
♥K-ON!
♥K-ON! SEASON 2
♥CARD CAPTOR SAKURA
♥CCS MOVIE - FUUIN SARETA CARD
♥KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN
♥PRINCESS LOVER
♥BLEACH
♥SPECIAL.A
♥GUNDAM 00
♥GUNDAM 00 2ND SEASON
♥GUNDAM 00 MOVIE: A WAKENING OF THE TRAILBLAZER
♥CODE GEASS: LELOUCH OF THE REBELLION
♥CODE GEASS: LELOUCH OF THE REBELLION R2
♥KIN'IRO NO CHORDA: PRIMO PASSO (LA CHORDA D'ORO)
♥KIN'IRO NO CHORDA: SECONDO PASSO (LA CHORDA D'ORO)
♥07-GHOST
♥D.GRAY-MAN SEASON 1
♥D.GRAY-MAN SEASON 2
♥NYAN KOI!
♥KUROSHITSUJI
♥KUROSHITSUJI II
♥VAMPIRE KNIGHT
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♥KIMI NI TODOKE
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♥SUZUMIYA HARUHI NO YUUUTSU
♥SUZUMIYA HARUHI NO YUUUTSU (2009)
♥CLANNAD
♥CLANNAD AFTER STORY
♥SHAKUGAN NO SHANA
♥SHAKUGAN NO SHANA II
♥SHAKUGAN NO SHANA S
♥FATE/STAY NIGHT
♥FATE/STAY NIGHT - UNLIMITED BLADE WORKS MOVIE
♥BOTTLE FAIRY
♥SKIP BEAT!
♥CANAAN
♥ANGEL BEATS!
♥KAICHOU WA MAID-SAMA!
♥TORADORA!
♥TRUE TEARS
♥HAKUOUKI: SHINSENGUMI KITAN
♥HAKUOUKI: HEKKETSU-ROKU
♥ROMEO X JULIET
♥DURARARA!!
♥NARUTO
♥NARUTO SHIPPUDEN
♥NARUTO SHIPPUDEN MOVIE: BONDS
♥NARUTO SHIPPUDEN MOVIE: HI NO ISHI O TSUGU MONO
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♥SEITOKAI YAKUINDOMO
♥FULL METAL ALCHEMIST BROTHERHOOD
♥TO ARU MAJUTSU NO INDEX
♥TO ARU KAGAKU NO RAILGUN
♥MY LITTLE SISTER CAN'T BE THIS CUTE
♥BAKUMAN
♥FORTUNE ARTERIAL: AKAI YAKUSOKU
♥PSYCHIC DETECTIVE YAKUMO
♥AO NO EXORCIST
♥THE WORLD GOD ONLY KNOWS
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♥SOUL EATER

♥ JAPANESE DRAMA/MOVIE

♥DEATH NOTE 1
♥DEATH NOTE 2: THE LAST NAME
♥KOIZORA: SKY OF LOVE
♥10 PROMISES TO MY DOG
♥LIAR GAME
♥LIAR GAME 2
♥LIAR GAME MOVIE: THE FINAL STAGE
♥YAMATO NADESHIKO SHICHI HENGE
♥OTOMEN
♥NOBUTA WO PRODUCE
♥GOKUSEN 2
♥GOKUSEN 3
♥GOKUSEN MOVIE
♥ONE POUND GOSPEL
♥YUKAN CLUB
♥SUSHI OUJI
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♥HOTARU NO HIKARI
♥HOTARU NO HIKARI 2
♥GOOD LUCK!
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♥INU O KAU TO IU KOTO
♥CONFESSIONS (告白)
♥BLOODY MONDAY
♥BLOODY MONDAY 2
♥CODE BLUE
♥CODE BLUE SEASON 2
♥MR. BRAIN
♥BUZZER BEATER

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LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:52 PM

♥ Monday, April 14, 2008

I felt bliss and happiness last Saturday...accompanied with a tinge of hesitation and lost.
I told myself that i'd hate you, but those harsh feelings seem to dissolve so quickly and i'd never find the source of it.

I always told myself that i can never b bothered with you again, but when i talked to you, i'll find myself deeply indulged in that particular conversation, i absorbed and digested every word you said and i'd find myself constantly smiling at the computer like i'm out of my mind as long as you are over the other side of the conversation. This miraculous and magical feeling i find in no one else, the type of affection i feel for no one else but you even after all these time can never be explained. I'm slowly changing though i deny it, all for that one purpose, for you to one day see everything that i've done for you.

I dream of you day by day without fail, but those false reality only serves as a means of more false hope and mindless waiting for this relationship that's bound to have nothing blossoming out of it. The only thing that'll result in this bitter-sweet mental torture will be more cries, be it silent or visible tears. You're not a perfect guy, you're not a dream guy material for girls, but somehow or another, you always seem to make me fantasize abt you, abt the day i'd finally get to have a taste of my dreams. It all seemed so impossible and i hate myself for the wishful thinkings that i've endlessly pulled on my part.

You have the ability to make me smile and momentarily for-go all the troubles i might be experiencing right then. Your words brings me to another false reality, be it happiness or misery. I cry because of you, i dream because of you, i strive because of you, i smile and laugh because of you. But i know that i can never again muster up that same courage i once had, to confront you and tell you upright that my world revolves arnd you.

I wish i had more control over my own emotions, but until i find someone else that i'd appreciate more than i'd do to you, all i can do is just sit around while my mind, my soul and my heart continues to endlessly circle around every detail of you. I've seriously touched myself with this common saying on the streets, "love is blind."

Labels: cries, hurt, Lost, love, rants, upset

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:48 PM

♥ Sunday, April 06, 2008

I feel lyk dying. Maybe i jux dun deserve to live. I feel lyk crying out, but for some reason i feel choked. Trying to find another way out? It's a dead end for me. Cuz we all shld just learn dat we can't expect pple to see everything u do. Yeah and sometimes i feel lyk i don't deserve to exist on Earth becuz of the character given for me to play in this dimension, in this drama, in this show of life. Sometimes i feel helpless against my own feelings, sometimes i feel lyk crying everything out, but pride prevents me from doing so. Apolgy is a tough word to put into action, sometimes it's too late to regret after everything happened. And the only way to soothe everything may be just to let go of these pple, perhaps they mite be much happier without me, perhaps they mite b better off forgetting a friend lyk me, who brings abt misery and upsets. I'm so tired of explaining my pnt, maybe it may nt b a bad thing to keep ur intentions to urself at times as well, and another thing, i feel lyk deleting this blog. End my words, end my writings, end my past pains. Tell me what to do. I need words of wisdom.

Labels: cries, hurt, rants, upset

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:38 PM

♥ Saturday, April 05, 2008

I hate everything this world stands for, i hate life, i hate the fact that i'm on this Earth. Where everyday goes by in a pointless way, where people starts devouring each other with poisonous words. Yes poisonous. Cuz from the pnt i forgot the guy i once liked, from the pnt i start to hate guys, from the pnt i start to mistrust and distrust and from that pnt i tore up the drawings i once drew with thought and feelings in, i knew i was gone for good. A lost cause, a lost me. Cuz everything arnd me will freeze.

Just like in a surgery, it may be a success, it'll still leave a scar there, and people who's been thru surgery are most likely to have problems later on, or to die earlier. Why? Cuz of the fact that their bodies hav been ripped apart by a scalper before.

To the current me, there are only trusts in certain pple, ther r only faith in the minority i knew, the others? People that come and go in my life, i will close up, to everyone else. Cuz people only hear cries of others, people only try to soothe the heat of certain beings, while i shall just get past my feelings myself, with no1 out ther. With no1 to stand by me when i needed a listening ear, and now i'll endlessly remind myself, that i'm no1 in every1's eyes, that my absense will make the world a better place.

I cant wait for the day where everyone on earth starts turning against eachother and die of mutual destruction using the most destructive weapon on Earth, the mouth.

Labels: cries, hate, pains, rants

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:21 PM

♥ Friday, April 04, 2008

Got my A1 for Amaths like finally, something i've been working and waiting for for so long. But this doesn't cheer me up like it was supposed to. People arnd me lack the motivation to study and concentrate for 'O' lvls like i wan2, pple arnd me dun seem to care and i know nothing of what to do. And some things in the afternoon seem to piss me off up till now, i feel like smashing a table. FUCK! And you can't imagine how angry i was at that time, why? Cuz pple can't admit they r at wrng. But i decided nt to rake the whole thing up or elaborate on it. Once again, i'm nt pinpointing. Bye

Labels: cries, hate, school, tired

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:07 PM

♥ Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Will be back with a proper post tomorrow or maybe on Friday. Enjoy this new music, it's so nice and so touching...

Corrine May - Fly Away

When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as I crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stayBaby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
Silver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be praying every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away
--

I'm in the midst of bitterness now and i don't understand why
Feel like dying, feeling like crying, but for some reason...i can't
I wish i was dead, or better yet never borned
I wish some people'd just disappear from my life
I wish i had no memory
I wish i was a simpleton
I wish i can just go else where alone, with no one at all
Because no one knows that i'm crying
No one sees that i'm suffering
No one understands that i'm agonizing
That's life, people think for only themselves
What was i expecting in the first place?
I CAN'T STAND THIS ANYMORE~!!
Revive me someone!!
Make me cry smile!

Labels: bitterness, comfort, cries, song

LOVE BESTIES~♥
7:17 PM

♥ Friday, March 21, 2008

Ok...lets pick up the post from Yesterday which is Haru's birthday. Shall be celebrating wif her, Opa and Zuany tmr. Pardon me of my previous post anyway, i have a short-fuse like i said before ((: I have some pictures before i blog in detail of her little celebration tmr. Be honoured hor Haru!!

Candid of Opa and Zuany's back view

And Haru wif her prezzie from her juniors.

Went off happily this morning in a tired mood cuz i was busy chatting with Pamela last night and found that we had so much to talk abt. Haha. Have to say not bad to Brandon, from what i heard, his tuition is not too shabby.

Today's the long awaited annual Enrolment Service. Well i wasn't that excited about it and i expected no feelings but after looking at our photos of the graduating batch, i felt quite touched and a tinge sour within my heart. I guess i can't say that i have no feelings for this CCA either. So many things i miss and will miss :

1) How I got to join GB 'cause of Kaye.

2) RTC during Sec 1, it was the most awesome camp. I could feel bonds then and it all ended the year our 1st batch of seniors left. We had BBQ and night walk, simple activities but the smiles were never removed from our contented faces then.

3) Canoeing

4) Adventure weekend during sec 3 [esp the unforgettable 'courage test']

5) JOINING NDP'07 IN THE NAME OF 19TH COY!! [this rocks!!]

6) Ups and downs in NCO council meetings [was tiring but we all had fun throughout]

7) Drill Competition [DEFINITELY]

8) This year's leadership conference

9) The chance to learn inline-skating in 19th coy

10) The many years before and of'course this year's Enrolment Service.

11) My lovely Seniors and Juniors who made this 3 years 3 months worth of CCA times worth while ((:

12) Manymany more ofcourse, too many to list out ((:

I cried after we passed down our NCO-Council position. I have faith that the nxt batch will do equally well or even better than this year. Keep up the gold-award yeah?? I watched afew of my batch's girls cry before i followed up as well. It was unforgettable and incredible though we do face hypocrisy, upsetting and happy moments all together. The best was when we shouted "expired!" together. Yeah we're expired brigaders. Lols. I promise to visit yeah? Even though i won't serve anymore, you can count on my to pay my visits from time to time, wait for me pple. Oh good now i'm on the verge of crying again. Too many memories in this CCA, a short 3years plus with so many life experiences like jetty jump and canoeing etc. This feels familiar, just like the day when NDP'07 ended last year. I have my pictures with me like always but i don't have all the girls i want to credit in there...

The big big family of 19th coy'08

Shirley, Jasmine, Cheryl and SuetLian!

Me and Shirley....I'll look awful in the nxt 3 photos. But who cares ((:
Cute Jasmine and I!!
Jollie and Me
Me and the famous irritating girl, SIYING!!
Me and Jiahui, not forgetting her stylo-milo.
"watch the economy yeah?"
Dim picture of Me and my Squad leader, Yanmin. Loving her lots!
Me and Shimin who was so sweet, she teared for us. I'll miss her.
Cute ANNA!! Congrats for being PC yeah?? Mux GAMBATE kayys?
San-jie @ Ex-platoon1 PC, Cheri!
Me and Cool ex NCC-Cadet Atiroh
The sweeties. Missing the memories wif them forever,
it is them who left beautiful footprints in my GB life, every1 of u will be significant in my memory...don't forget that yeah?
I love candids, esp of those who are camwhoring as well!
Cool girl.

Hey girls, i so appreciate the tears you all shed for us, i will miss you as much as you all will to me. Remember, excel and strive for the best in anything you do cuz we're 19th Coy Brigaders yeah?? Too many names to list so i won't go into detail for every single one of the lovelies i'll never forget. The past 3 years flew by, from the youngest to the most seniors in school and in a flash, 'O's are approaching as well. I hooked pinkies with many of my juniors, i promise to visit them in my JC uniform when i get into 1 nxt year yeah?? I know i know, i'm so long-winded here but you know, it's 3years and 3 months worth of feelings to express out in just 1 post. There's still a last parade for us all in another 2 weeks time and by then, i'll prepare a little something for all of you sweeties ((:

Labels: cries, Friends, Goodbyes, Memories, Pictures

LOVE BESTIES~♥
5:50 PM

♥ Thursday, March 20, 2008

My afternoon spirit is completely ruined cuz of some dispute on my way home. I must've cared for way too many things that doesn't really concern me anyway. Why put myself in that pool of confusion and misunderstandings when the people you to do something for doesn't show that bit of appreciation for. Now i'm regretting for sacrificing the lesson times that i've missed to make some dumb drawing just to earn a bitter smile from people. I'm not criticizing anyone, i'm just stating how naive i am to try to perform my role as a good friend, to show that i care. Truth is, they don't care if you care, they care only about how they themselves feel. Typical human nature; i should've known. How can you say that i don't understand when i've been through much worse than you had.

Try sitting outside the DM room with eyes fixed on you wondering about what wrong you've done, try crying there alone with no comforting from who-so-ever (because rules stated, people outside DM room for detention can't communicate with anyone) at all while staring into your own reflection by the glass cover of a notice board. Try experiencing the feeling of being blamed for embarrassing the group by just talking and after feeling bad enough to just sit there for 2 hours. I totally understand and i understand much worse, i know the feeling of "Why me??!!" within the heart, but i get rubbed at for this in my face time and again. I should just tear that insane good-for-nothing sign of concern away cuz no1 really cares anyway. But hey, why am i crying here? It's not because of the embarrassment, it's because of the disappointment and the hurt upon hearing words that stabbed me through and through.

Told myself not to cry, yet i still did again.

I'll tear this piece of ugly junk away..

But hey, where does the word appreciation stand in this society anyway?? I'm crying over the naive mindset i have about people around me, i must've cared way too much for people than being returned for. People keep things from eachother, yeah there's this invisible iron curtain present between us, i know way too much than people wished i do. At times, good deeds become bad. No survivor in the socirty lives on love alone, you need to be a realistic being and not an ideologist, I'll keep this in mind. Thanks for penetrating this painful reality into my thick skull once and for all. Never be a kind soul, you'll just lose out.

'nuff said

Labels: cries, Disappointment, hurt, Obstacles, rants

LOVE BESTIES~♥
3:26 PM