♥ WENXUAN-

Well...we'll start off with a pic of a reallllly over-dued can which was bitten open by Nex at bugis on Saturday....retarded fella.

Anyway...was so sleepy yesterday, i slept as early at 8.30pm and couldn't wake up like a dead log....omg...couldn't remember the last time i was dead to the bones this way....

Back from Chinese Orchestra today, super tiring, but more productive than last week. Thanks to the patient seniors who didn't burst their blood vessels while teaching someone who doesn't even freaking know how to read the score =X Then ther's this retarded Aloysius who put up fei yu qing's song as our class blog's song. Oh yeah....i haven't even talked about how shotgun the whole class blog thingy came about! And now they are ardy planning on class outings and study groups. ~~

That's why many people said, for a JC student, the school revolves around him/her. Most of our time are just spent in college, the amount of perspiration and energy placed on school commitments are enough to get us toppling onto our respective beds the moment we reach home. Other than late night net surfing...what else can possibly contribute to our work-life balance? We do homework daily just to keep in par with the progress of the school and the class....but even when leaving out on the extra studying time that's supposed to be allocated aside by each and every one of us just to be ahead and prepared all the time....we're all assured to be mentally exhausted daily without fail.

And no no....physical strains are never lesser than those of secondary schools as well. Thanks to the NS for guys, we girls are also pulled down along with them for a double PE week instead of those once a week routine we were so used to for the past 4 yrs. Then there's CCA, which USED to be once a week on fridays for me in the past...needless to say...the holy-torturous project work. OHH don't remind me of it, everything abt PW is a nightmare. It's the onli exam that enables us to talk, to discuss and to work as a grp....truth is, everything's just too good to be true. I'd rather swallow pages of notes daily than have to think of something 'innovative' and 'creative' for a project that's not going to be carried out anyway.

Oh wells, for those of you who've had enough of my senseless rantings....i honestly feel apologetic to you people. For i have to have you know that ther's no way i can not talk about school after having to face a bunch of book devouring classmates daily :O how do you condition to an environment wher everyone's just burried in the knowledge tree daily like they've never seen books before?!

Just some random pics anyway...

A Warning sign pasted on the Staff's toilet outside 'the loft' of the school.

Be careful folks...
they may just send a mad dog into the washroom to bite ur bare-butts rawrrs :S

During CO training....everyone went missing o_o

Ok...so not funny.

And...when CCA ended....we all saw this beatiful full rainbow which my pathetic phone camera couldn't catch the whole image of...

But it appears that all the folks on CCK would've ardy seen it. I mean, how to miss it? So significant, so brightly coloured and so rare for it to be perfect from side to side!

But anyway, it's supposed to be a double rainbow....1 obvious one and a faded-one above it but thanks to the 2.0 mega pixel phone...i was unable to catch the image of it...

Anyway...shall end the post here....may the rainbow we all see whether in real or on picture be a sign for more great things to come :D

Btw...i'm running in the class-relay for the school's carnival. I must be crazy to have volunteered :S

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:15 PM

Sometimes, when i re-think of the times we shared in the past, i just can't help but wonder of why i didn't cherish every minute we had before. The times we had to study together, to take examinations together, to sit in class and crap together and to walk home laughing together. I can't help but remininsce all those beautiful months and years we spent, and i wouldn't mind going through the whole routine to be with you girls again.

Walking home alone brings regrets to me, of why i couldn't have entered the same JC as you girls. It's a horrible thought i guess, but it's un-deniable to say that even going home with you girls in the past is something i used to look forward to daily. But presently, the only thing i look forward to about going home...is to return to the warm bed and get a full rest from the day's hustle and bustle.

No matter where we are, we're always at our full-company for eachother, and i never felt a moment of loneliness with you girls around me. Keeping eachother company, being sensitive for one another...even quarrels do bring us closer all the time. We seem to always have endless of stories and gossips to share with one another...but where have all these topics gone now?

Remember the times? Where we went for outings, where we went for lunches as celebrations of the end of common tests and such? Remember the times where we laughed heartily in the MRT, not giving a hoot of the expressions given to us by passer-bys? And i can never forget the times where i can never get enough of taking candid shots of u girls. I felt my true self emerging around the clock when i'm with you all, but now...i feel restricted to everything that i do, to everything that i say and to how i behave in school. I felt things tying me down...like i've lost who i was when i was wif u pple. I missed all of you.

And what breaks my heart most...is that i've misplaced the beautiful neoprints we took. If only tears could recover them....

If only we could relive the past...i'll never let any second that we have to spend with eachother go down to waste again.

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:32 PM

Before people starts complaining that i'mma lazy girl, i shall just blog before i go slp :X

Friday, as i said, i crazily went for Chinese Orchestra...oso duno wad in the world's got into me to wan2 try that cca all of e sudden but none-the-less, it's great to know that people arnd me are supportive of my desire to learn a new instrument. Pretty cool ehh....Erhu. I always thot dat pple playing Erhu r veri gentle in veri well mannered de, but here am i, playing it as well (or rather, trying to learn how to play wif it). But either ways, the impression of what every1 has abt an Erhu-ist (or whatever it's called) just doesnt clique with my character.

Went to Lot1 in the evening, initially thot that we were headed for Bugis though it's already pretty late by then but due to some miscom, we stayed in lot1 and had dinner at Curryhouse. My wallet was screaming for help but...guess it's fine to burn money once in awhile ._. Had a really fulfilling dinner and played afronova and airspecial for Jess and her friend upon going up like immediately o.O great for an after meal work out, really glad i didn't end up like a merlion.

On Saturday, met wif Nex at arcade before going for Bugis, coincidently saw Jasmine and Kenny at lot1. Played DDR, GF and jubeat for a couple of rounds before heading for Bugis which later, that botak was happy he did 'cause Si-gi-na turned up at lot1 eventually. Lucky him. Hahaha, just love disturbing him about how Si-gi-na might just fall in love wif him 1 day :O that'll bring nightmares to him wouldn't it? Everything just flew by in e noon before we were joined up by Kenneth n Qianhui eventually before having Dinner at a kopitiam at arnd 9+ 10. Having dinner at a kopitiam at bugis really is a once of a lifetime experience sia -.- And managed to hop onto the last train back to CCK, lucky us. Romance keep scaring us abt hw we might miss the last NS line train ._.

Oh yeah forgot to add in how small the world is. Everyone's at Bugis arcade yest. Victor, Jade, Felicia, Raymond, Velvet, Steven, Nora, Edeson, YuhShin, JingQuan and Jason & Wanqi (who came to join us abit later) were all ther. ~~~ Let's put it this way, Singapore is indeed a dot on the map. LOL!

Today, nothing much....spend the whole day nua-ing at home as per Wanqi-tradition. LOL! Watched little nyonya on MIO and chatted wif Danny on e phone. Nothing much after. I fell aslp afta putting down the phone and didn't reply ben-Dan's sms. LOL! Stupid Danny ._. onli noe hw to talk cock. Ok shall end post here hahaha...random =/

LOVE BESTIES~♥
10:25 PM

Nothing to blog abt actually, except for the fact that i've gotten into Chinese Orchestra and am going to play the erhu. Nice yeah? But other than that, i'll just replace this post wif a chibi pic. Be nice pple, constructive comments only yeah? :D

LOVE BESTIES~♥
1:14 AM

Back on Friday again....i think that by now, most readers are already irritated by my inconsistency in updating. Thank god i didn't live by the same principle as tiger or else...i think i'll have aloooooooooooot to update and aloooooooot owed to my OWN blog -.-

Week came, week went, time passed like that. Lectures, tutorials, homework. Nothing special except for the fact that i've had enough of role plays....the panda role play. No makeup, 100% chemical free....all u hav to do is stay up till 3am and wake up at 6.30am. That should work. But be reminded, it only comes into effect from 3day and onwards. People say i'm turning noctournal but i don't feel that that's the case. 'Cause the pre-requisite to being noctournal is having the ability to sleep in the day, which sadly doesn't apply for my case. Or let's just put it this way, even if i wanted to...i just can't.

What's worse during the week was for the fact that i haven't been feeling very well. Having a sexy voice was a bummer... Coughing the whole time is worse. Coarse voice making me sound like my voice's just broken (like not possible?) and some asshole who just goes coughing away just to clear the phlagm in her throat during lectures and tutorials. Hope i didnt 'cause big obstructions during the lessons. Then i must also add in that i've done funny things through out the week as well....like how i was the only one who chose to throw away a cow just cuz it looks dumb.

Don't get what i'm talking abt? Doesn't matter, it's not important anyway 'cause the "personality test" is not even accurate. F.Y.I, my #1 love is money. Trait inherited from Weimin after years of speaking to him XD
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Let's now jump to a new topic now. But be reminded(sadly), that just because i've not been blogging in some time doesn't mean that i can promise that this last part's going to be fulfilling. I'll be doing flames as usual, but not as harshly this time. Just expressing my opinion. So if i do hit the bulls-eye again, it's time u reflect :D (Then again, i'm only human...so correct me if i'm wrong)

How do you define pro-wess? Someone who endlessly spams on things they are good in? Let's bring in an example for easier discussion. Met up wif Nex, Kenneth, Weili, Alson, Qianhui and her fnd on wednesday at lot1. While Nex was playing jubeat, this freako tapped a total of 7 times which amounts to 7 x $2 = $14 in total! Wonder if kids these days are too rich or what. Oh well...as he wishes =/ But really...when i was looking at the way he was playing...he didn't seem all that good to me. Moral of the story....

#1 tap in consideration that others might want to play as well. Don't hog onto the machine 'cause it's not your grandpa or ancestor's property!

#2 spending alot of $$ doesn't necessarily mean that you're pro.

Example 2 will then touch up on #2. There's this B**d (DDR ID) player that i've once played with. He just couldn't find a way to stop showing off how much he scored in each round. He feels proud to beat you but guess what? While you're playing on Expert mode, he's whacking on the Beginner's mode. So who'd you think thrashed who? I'm not condemning such actions 'cause, yes while it's true you've scored better than me in every song...would you like to take a look at the difficulty of each song and take into account of how much of a toll each song's taken out of me as compared to you? And this shameless ass was bragging of how i'm only level 27 in my new card and of how he's already level 50+. So what if i'm of a lower level than you? Level only proves of how much you've invested in your training in the machine but alas, i'm a level 27 who's playing on a tougher mode as compared to a level 50+. Get out of that puny world of yours already and start concentrating on improving and not bragging! This therefore brings forth a third point...

#3 don't act pro if you're not...

But hey i'm not quite finished yet. I'd like to make known a last species who at least has a certain standard in each song (in the Bemani case) he/she's playing. While skill does affect the way audiences look at you, attitude is what other players do look at. So what if you're good? I think the key to success and pro-wess is to be humble. If you're going to go off bragging, than it'll be a waste of your talent 'cause you'll just remain as a piece of thrash in others' eyes. So this brings out the last point...

#4 be humble...don't seek unwanted attention 'cause there might be people out there who you DON'T want to offend (:
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Oh god...blogging is indeed poisonous. So be careful to not end up in the blacklist of a blog with external audiences =X

LOVE BESTIES~♥
12:16 AM

Ok procrastinator is back :D:D

During Wednesday was e start of our orientation, but apparently the schedule was pretty boring for a start till all the excitement came in during the 2nd and 3rd day. Most of the time we were just folding stars for the star ceremony at the end wher they'll put our 90'000+ folded stars into a template to mk the largest logo made of paper stars n e singapore's book of records, marking pioneer's 10th anni. Then ther's this significant happening during our OG time wher we were playing 'cling cling'. I thot 30mins game time wld giv me at least 1 chance to run away but...i just stood ther and swapped partners of both genders arnd 7 times....be it whether im standing on the left or right, somehow, i'll jux get grabbed frm e back, front or side suddenly. =/

Then on Thursday was our station games and mass dance. Me, Jasmine, Yixian, Zihui and Josephine were happy cuz we're tall so we thot we'll b playing e role of a guy during the mass dance since ther's a shortage of guys in the class. But turns out differently from what we expected since the dance requires dancers of both genders to be compatible in terms of height, so naturally if ther's gunna b a huge height barrier, ther'll be trbles during the dance...which we onli realized a little later. But never the less, we submitted to our fates -.-

Stationed games were great, the class-spirit was quite sporting. of abt 7 stations. 4 were water related games and 1 was flour. Imagine how dirty we are. Then ther's this spider web where we the few among who're taller crossed through the larger hole 1st to help the smaller sized classmates across be it carrying them horizontally or whichever way's possible. The cheers also muted me momentarily for every consecutive days and the muting is carried all the way till today -.- Mass dance was coupled as i say, but it's nicely choreographed. We're screaming throughout the dance and the best was the fun dance!! OMG completely retarded, just nicely made for a crazy cohort like ours :D:D

Last day was awesome as well....no stationed games but i was glad the school came up wif a principal-student dialogue session wher ther r 2 microphones placed amongst the students and anyone of us may just stand up to petition for smth or mk a suggestion or just mk a complaint of whatever they might hav any ideas abt. But the rest of the activities were sort of repeated except the finale which was the best part i feel. Everyone just went crazy wif our cheerings and screamed like louder than 10 arcades. LOL!! Finale was great, we just grabbed any1 arnd us to do our mass dances since we've all lost our partners in the crowd or whatever the reason. Woots. Then later at night went to arcade to meet up wif Kenneth and Wanqi.

Me, Yixian and Jasmine ((:

Yesterday was Valentine's and Nex kept disturbing me abt how sexy my voice sounded cuz of all the screamings.....then went to Bugis wif Kenneth n Wanqi as well to the arcade for ddrX. Though the screen was bad, the cost of the games were value for money. Cheaper than Sn2! $1.50 for joint premium OMG!! LOL! Why can't it be at lot1. =(( Then went to BK to eat despite the condition of my throat...and met up wif Qianhui ther before going back to the arcade to burn whatever i've eaten. But...thx to Nex, my fries was cleared as well :D:D Then a little later, Kang and Jonathan joined us but we were gg home by then ler.

Times on the MRT was retarded as well. We played stupid games like "不说你我他" until things got a little out of hand. Think we were creating alot of noise and commotion arnd the whole MRT but heck! But the last event was horrible cuz i felt sum1 sliding his hand up my thigh on my way home. The LRT station was packed so when the pple came out of the LRT, this damn indian guy was happy placing his palm on my lap touching like fuck. Damn him!

Anyway, happy belated Valentine's to all!!

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:45 AM

Haha i think i am indeed evolving into a ultimate-procrastinator. I must really start going by my own principles so i'll stop putting off things unnecessarily but i know you readers r kind souls so i'll update soon. REAL SOON! Anyway, for people wondering what's wif e latin song as my blog song that's first on the playlist, it's "Let's Get Loud"....haha our mass dance song...so there there, does this explain why our dances r coupled/partnered dances? -.-

LOVE BESTIES~♥
12:44 AM

Orientation was great, but tiring....to the extent i forgot to tend to my blog for one whole week. You won't blame me rite? =(( LOL! Mass dance/Cute dance/Fun dance was crazy but hey....nicely choreographed. Zzzz...i love the mass dance song, and goodness knows why LOL! but hey i think that school isn't bad until now. Or at least till now. Who noes what might happen in future again. =((

These few days' been fun thx to afew fun peeps arnd me namely Jasmine, Yixian, RuiQi and also JJ LOL! Our last jiemei! =X But heyy....i miss unity. )): Shall update more on what happened these few days tmr.....but i'll just end off with some other stuff. Serious matters. What's serious? I went to arcade right after Orientation! LOL! I thot i was gunna F.C 'drop out' but sadly i always screw up at the back =(( Damn song. I cldn't freaking catch the 4-in a row arrows. BLEAH! Then ther's 'Venus' on challenge...so freaking fast, i didn't hav enuf time to register the ways to chg my leg in my mind to deal with the freeze arrows. Ended up tangling up my own legs. Bleah. But i think alot of newer arcaders were shocked at my appearance...like some pple on e Jubeat corner who didn't c me b4 were expecting me to playing at beginner or basic or something like that. Heyheyhey, don't judge a book by it's cover ehh. But still, thx to lack of time for constant training, my skills r lagging far behind compared to Kenneth and Wanqi. Let's not talk abt Nex in this LOL! And yeah.....Si-Gi-Na sux (smth random).

And lastly....i admitted my actions last time, but don't judge me by my past doings, and don't pin-point me as 'cheap' just because of my mistakes in the past. Won't be elaborating on it....you know what i'm talking here. So...i think i'm nt obliged to agree or submit to any of ur requests....that's final!

LOVE BESTIES~♥
11:55 PM

Self-drawn rose and for the 1st time...coloured. :D

Years and months passed i guess. Was only sec 2 then....and it's probably where everything started. You've asked me this particular question which i've never been able to give you a clear answer with but right now, i think i've already came down with a conclusion of everything. I am able to give you a definite answer with absolutely no doubts in my mind but i'm just not mentally prepared for it. For anything that may emerge out of it. Afterall, if i were to openly make a decision, someone's bound to emerge scalthed from the whole string of events. Blame it on myself, for being so undecisive in such things. For letting another wait, for stirring up false hopes, for not following my heart in the first place. Self-denial never solves anything, they only put off the problem or accumulate with time to make things swell up and become worse...such that it's gonna turn out very ugly sooner or later. For now...silence is golden.

I've never once thought that i would turn out to be constantly thinking about you like presently....and it's never crossed my mind that you'll somehow be my pillar of support until...i started missing you with every moment you're not around...

LOVE BESTIES~♥
2:28 PM

Damn sian. Read Junrong's blog. I was damn troubled by the exact same thing for the whole day as well. Thinking of what the hell i should do if i really don't get selected in any cca. Didn't make sense to me in any way....800 over students enrolled in a batch....but every cca has a maximum intake they can have which is at 25 students each. So how is everyone gonna get a cca wif a nice record? Testimonial is indeed important as the school said, so i think the school management should also do something to ensure that most of the students gets into the cca they desire and not just be driven by the benefits each cca is going to get upon recruiting an experienced student. Am i not right about this? What would cca mean if we are to get into some clubs where we have absolutely no interest in? It would've defeated it's very purpose from the beginning wouldn't it? But hey.....ideas anyone?

Secondly, i think i have partly myself to blame for ending up in this plight as well. I didn't plan my time efficiently. Cuesport is something that i at least have a certain amount of experience in, should've went for the trial but....screw planning!

Lastly, god blessed us with a mouth each didn't he? A mouth is for the sole purpose of communication and when i say communication, i mean friendly communication. If you only use your mouth to eat, then you're better off being a dog right? But hey...i forgot for the very fact that you already are a dog kept by a certain someone else. Just because he's in a more powerful position, you allow yourself to sniff his butt, lick his boot and follow his footsteps blindly. Is this economics? Minimize loss and maximize welfare? Then i'm sorry to say, you've lost more than what you've thought. You've lost yourself, a mind of your own.

We humans are blessed with the ability to talk, and i believe even a 3 year old kid has the ability to at least say "excuse me" but you'd prefer using your legs instead. You think that your sucky attitude is awesome? It disgusts me honestly. What's with that stinky face we all see all the time? What's with the fucked up attitude you're giving to people all the time? I don't see a need for anyone to have to face that fucked up face of yours just because you felt like giving it to them, 'cause no one owes you a living in his or her previous lives. But being nice, i shall pray for you, that you do not over look the tiniest rock that's just before you 'cause that you mean your down fall....and for people whom you've offended (like me), we would really love to see you fall and fall flat in your face.

Lastly...you do fit a role of a dog. Afterall, only a dog follows it's owner around, only a dog barks at absolutely anyone even if the person has no intention of doing what-so-ever in the first place. So...if u enjoy this job so much, why don't you just sniff the floor and lick his ass? ((:

Oh yeah and i almost forgot. I'd like to make my opinion of you. I think that you suck, you stink, you give people around you and your school a bad name. You're fucked up, you're spoilt, you're screwed up and someone who hasn't grown up. But mark my words, you'll end up regretting one of these days... A.T.T.I.T.U.D.E marks a 100% in the success of everyone's life but it seems as though it's something you've honestly failed in. Please just look into the mirror and see for yourself...of how much of a loser you've been. If you still don't get the whole idea of what i'm saying, you're better off dead. I mean it.

LOVE BESTIES~♥
1:06 AM

I'm fighting an endless battle here....where there will be no end or pauses to it for the next 2 years. This week's been a prolouge for us, about what's coming in for us for the rest of the two years. This is a battle....a 50-50 gamble. Or is the percentage accurate anyway? Either i come out as everything, or i end up with nothing...back the the point where i just got back my O's results again. Which means, it's 2 yrs wasted. Was it the right choice of not appealing out? I'm still pondering. But hey...i trust myself don't i?

Orientation's been torturous. Not much on orientation this week but more on admin stuffs....kindof like, getting us started for what's in for us?? First is the choosing of the subject combination of our choices....so attending introductory lectures is compulsory to all of us naturally, even though the attendence for every one of it is optional. Then comes the choosing of our CCAs, wished to take up bowling but it's economically unfriendly. Then wanted to try out Choir....and backed out in the end, partially 'cause we forgot the venue for audition. LOL! We just didn't want to roam around the school like some lost sheep. So went to try out Archery today, didn't perform very well to be honest....or at least below my own expectations of myself. The chances of my entering should be really low. If that's gunna be the case, i guess we'll have to make do with a CCA of a certain club with not much commitment. Afterall, as important as testimonials comes, our academic grades are still the ones that makes the largest difference primarily. Come to think of it....our testimonials would be worthless without our grades supporting them wouldn't they?

What comes as double the torture was the fact that we had to sit on the floor for hours listening to boring talks that seems never-ending on mornings of the first 3 days of school. Sitting on the floor is a chore...especially when all the cramps starts coming in. Agreed??

Lastly....I still hate PE. I so hope for PE to have never existed. The fact that we're running 3.2km in school as training instead of the standard 2.4km intimidiates me. What haunts me more is the fact that i still have two years of such tortures to endure, which was part of my considering points when deciding on where to go. Afterall, Poly doesn't have PE lessons. )): Never the less....even though it's only been a week since school started, i personally think that PJC rocks! :D

LOVE BESTIES~♥
12:12 AM

Lots to say, but i will blog on another day...

Hey it rhymes! Nvm, rubbish. LOL! Either ways, Econs sux!

LOVE BESTIES~♥
10:56 PM