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An ndp video of GB'07

Today is teachers' day. Actually its tomoro...but every yr oso celeb on 31st aug de. Lols. Thinking of August ending so xingtong sia...August has been a month wif so many things happening. Lols. Today in sku...we spend $4 each in class to buy present for all our teachers + a cake. Lols...a T-shirt for our teachers, made according to how they behave in class de. Lols. During the concert...i must say its pretty boring and so unentertaining. But hu cares...we're bz playing behind hahas. Then Ms Hamidah borrow umbrella frm us. Drop so many times. Wa me, shiyun and geraldine damn xingtong sia. We put 100 hearts down on dat umbrella n they jus play wif it lyk dat. swing it arnd grabbing onto de string...drop it on de floor. Then when they open...the whole world is luffing. Probably becuz its square. >.< Went bak to primary sku...hahas. Saw kaixun in his NJC uniform, then we were all lyk...walao eh. Lols. Then took a 6B'04 class photo. Woots. Miss CCKPS so much. Too bad, not whole class ther. Haix...

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10:37 PM

Not long ago had a fight with my parents accusing me of theft of their money. I was realli devastated...they had such little trust in me. It was cuz of this, i was feeling really down for the past few days. Saturday....i thot things wld get better, but he had to break my heart wif all the heartless words. For the 2 weeks...i've been having a cold war with my dad...cuz i hate him for not understanding me, not trusting me. I said i'd change. Afterall, whatever's happened was long ago. I tried to make peace wif them but this was the trigger factor. Today i quarrelled wif them again. Last nite, i was doing my homework...Geog articles, Amaths, workbook and stuff. He accused me of using computer at night. Threatened to lock up the computer. During the afternoon, my mom told me to make peace wif my dad...told me to stop hating him, i tried to oblige her request hoping that she'll not feel difficult between our unpleasants. But he said all the hurtful stuff to me. I told him say i was doing my work, my mom saw it as well, he just wldn't believe. Turning on the msn was just to let me listen to music. So that i wouldn't fal asleep while doing my work. Do i realli cause u to distrust me so much? I realli dunno. I want to appease wif u, but u had to make life difficult for me. What's my point of staying at home? At least, i see my true smiles while i'm with my frens. They make me luff, going to ndp was a great choice, to avoid them during saturdays for months, this cld avoid more conflicts. Now its over...pls tell me, how can i live with them??

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6:54 PM

Wa super sian sia. Today no more drawing ler. Exams in exactly 1 mnth. Mus study hard hard ler worhs. Still feel kinda upset over wad happened but i gt pple arnd me. I think its kinda final that im aiming for pioneer JC ler lors. Lols...i wan2 get into science stream so i mus study study study hard nxt yr. Probably becuz of its close location blah blah blah....Lols. But such things mus c results 1st larhs...talk talk talk oso no use. Sian liao....my holidays r all occupied. Sept holis mon, tues, wed gt long long hrs of lessons. OMG!!!! at least i hav thurs n fri all to myself. So either 1 day i will go out wif de retards lor. Lols. NDP RETARDS ALL THE WAY!! Then 1 day i shall slack at home. Mon/Tues/Wed nid to go out 1 day wif JZ, Opa and Haru. Lols. Planning to bring bks and clothing to sku. Then afta lessons, put books into JZ's locker then chg n go out immediately lers. Or else afta holis mus study lyk hell ler. Looking forward to saturday, NDP'07 GB Contigent BBQ!!!! Marshallers and trainers will b ther. Missy them so so so much. Speaking of NDP i think abt suntec and Neesoon camp again. Aiyoyoyoyos. My baobeii umbrella is stil wif me. Square shape wif NDP logo ther de. Lols..onli 600 over pple in singapore got. Obviously is NDP participants ler. Miss noisy guy so much. All his nonsense. Ofcuz all de hot army guys ther oso la. hahas. I need a life here...but sku wun gimme!!!! Dec holis mus go bak sku quite often for drill practices in preparation for Drill stage 1 and 2. Cuz i neva tk stage 1 last yr lors. Then gt test days summore. Hope i pass sia. Hahas. K la...9pm show starting ler =X I said to study but i neva said i wun watch tv. Hahas!!

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8:48 PM

Damn lazy to create new post so i'll just add on. Lols!!. Hmm...This pic is abit blurish probably cuz its drawn lightly and instead of a drawing block texture type of paper...i used a normal rough paper. This drawing is given to JingZuan ler so i cant redo. Lols....

Unlike the rest...this pic has no shadows at the back grnd. I hope de sea looks like a sea. Lols. The angle of it looks weird tho. In this pic..de 2 gals r not ordinary gals but more of celestial. explains y both of them has a wand... Becuz they're not ordinary gals...it explains why the girl behind has the ability to just stand in the sea and is not sinking. The other girl is pretty much more concentrated at the sound of the waves splashing to the shore and dancing to it. Hopefully that this pic, even tho blurish...is still nice. Hahas.

This pic...onli when i put up then i realize alot alot alot of errors. I wun mention them la. Maybe ur wun c oso. But for me.....im quite a perfectionist when it comes to my drawings. Hope this is nice. It doesn't carry much meaning also. By the water only meant purity and elegance. The couple in shadows r again imaginations made by the 2 girls hoping dat 1 day, they'd be able to come to this waterfalls with who they love. To watch this magnificient view. It is names full moon falls probably becuz of the full moon above de water falls. Lols. Hope that this waterfall and de river looks LIKE water this time.

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5:24 PM

Today is promotion and dedication service. How great huhs. I finally get to see de gals again. Missed them so much...saw Qianning, Eunice, Nellwyn. Vivian, Michelle, Pamela, Priscilla etc. Can't believe it man. Hahas. I nw realize hw much i miss them. Seeing them wear full U seems lyk a veri normal thing and smth im so so so used to. Even seeing Ms Angeline herself is such a wonderful thing to me. It feels jus lyk going back to NDP itself. But its all an illusion. Its just a 1 day P&D service. Arnd 2 to 3 hrs? But the trip alone made me reminsce and see the people i wanted to see so much so it's worth it isn't it? A great day. I can't believe my parents eavedropped my convo. But it was nth great. Lols. I thought we were meant to be, but now i realize it was all a big dream. The 3 years of knowing eachother was not strong enuf to bring us together lyk i wished to. Ther is another altenative...shld i reconsider?

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10:14 PM

I kindof drew 2 pics class today. The 2 right below is still kept by me. and the Last is for Simin. This toppest is updated a little later. I Drew at night. Its not as clear but i hope it'll still b loved. Hahas. This 1 is under the moon with the breeze and a plain field behind. Im nt a professional tho. So hope its quite distinguishable. The thorns infront meant the rocky moments in a romance. It is also wo prove dat they r standing on land. Hahas. It's quite obious what's going on with the shadows on the moon. Hahas..

For this pic, in case u r still wondering wad de shadows r doing...de 1 in the moon is hugging/kissing? I duno. Hahas. The bigger shadow is dancing. It shows de girl's imagination of herself and de boy she admired and hes just sitting infront of her in on the rock. He's so close to her...yet so far...

This 2nd pic is a girl who's a maid. Doesnt carry alot of romantic feeling...just her dream

I'd prefer the 1st picture...de 1 wher de girl sits on de grass and under the moon e. I think it carries abit mre meaning...but i love my artworks. But the price to pay is dirtying my hand. Hahas

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1:57 PM

A 15 minutes pic dat made my hands almost break. It's not perfect tho...The guys' Shadow...de hand was kindof on e wrng angle. Hahas. Too bad i guess...its darkly coloured so i cannot erase it. I'm not a professional artist. The back ground is actually part of the Earth suface and the outerspace...wif stars...but they are reaching out for brighter ones, Together. The wings represents the overcoming of difficulties together and that anything is possible. The shadow talks abt the history that was going to be made when they are reaching out for the stars together. It's actually a stupid drawing that i thought of giving a try since i was kindof inspired by the art of Kagaya. Normally i'd be realli lazy to even bother to draw for the backgrnd...but ofcuz i dun hold a candle to a true artist.

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5:45 PM

Haix...wanted to upload an NDP video so dat laulau can oso appreciate it but i guess youtube got pretty screwed up. Oh wells...waste my time >.< Today is Cheri's Birthday and we had an outing. Too bad gt internal conflict lor..duno wad happen oso but hope it'll resolve bahs. It was fun being a kid again, but as usual some unhappy things happened....maybe onli to me bahs. Perhaps im too sensitive? Cheri and Shiyun got pretty involved talking abt their class stuff and i realli duno wad to say, but to maybe sometimes b an extra to say "orh" or "ic" which makes me feel horrible bahs. I wasn't even saying anithing but those 2 words thruout their whole talk. Samantha, RuiLin, Cheryl and Suetlian are playing happily wif eachother. Wad to do? All i can do is smile at them lors. Then sometimes maybe Cheri lyks to talk abt stuff secretly whispering into pple's ears and when im faced wif a situation lyk this...i feel left out again. Maybe i just dun belong bahs. Always getting de type of feeling dat im perhaps close to noone...maybe im de onli 1 hu can understand myself...and Jieling too. Cheryl always seem to hav alot of say to others but when i ask her abt wad she said, she'd either say "Dun tell u" or "tell u oso u wun noe". Haix...I realli duno... Feeling realli bad. Am i being sensitive or am i realli dat left out? I'd always try to understand hw pple feel when they quarrel....but no1 seemed to understand me. I go out wif them...i call them my sisters...but smth's always missing in e middle. Am i thinking too much?

This is de exact feeling i get when i jus started sku this yr. I stepped into class, lonely. I noe no1 at all cuz de others r wif eachother in their new class...or at least they get to meet during certain subjs. Sharing common teachers. When ever they talk abt their class...i can onli sit back and listen. I duno wad to say...cuz im pretty much nt involved in any of their lessons. Crying afew days ago...when some of them heard of it...they said dat i always cry over small matters and quarrelling wif my parents is a veri common thing. But they duno abt de whole story...at least they r not distrusted. At least they hav sum1 close to them to share wif. Talked to kor abt it...and when ShiYun noes...she said i was biased. I called her at nite to tell her...but she tol me she had to bathe and she'd call bak lata. I waited for her call but it neva came. I fell aslp waiting. Today she told me she forgot and dat she was watching X-Family. I felt lyk my heart totally sank. She remembered to watch her X-family and is always telling me hw much she remembered wad date Fahrenheit releases their new album and de sound track for X-Family...then y can't she remember she said to call me? It's onli a matter of afew minutes. If u forget abt smth to do another...it onli means u dun freakin care. Y did y hav to say it when u can't fulfill it? she told me i treasure my sisters too much. Since u said dat....it means dat u pple dun treasure it...then y in de hell shld i treasure it?

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8:47 PM

Something made me realli disappointed today...but my kor went thru it wif me. He helped me n im realli grateful for dat. Even tho he's on guard duty today n im pretty sure he's tired...he made an effort to reply my messages n help me. Realli touched dat he even tried to joke wif me knowing im in a bad mood, jus to mk me feel better. He's been standing frm arnd 1-2pm till 10pm for guard duty n yeah...he's a great kor. Something hurt me terribly. I wasn't trusted. Is it that hard to trust someone if they've done something wrong b4?Must they be sentenced to death the nxt time something similar happened again, with no evidence and was innocent? I realli duno and am realli pissed off. Oh wells...forget it. This is life. No1 treats me kindly aniway. Kenna scolding frm my trainer in Frisbee course summore...but i diao him bak. This is jus not my day. A bunch of bastards were trying to get on my nerves. Don't they get bored and tired of their crap? Im realli tired. I hate crying. Having massive headache strikes today. I vomitted in my tears. Spare me!!

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10:38 PM

Another saturday over...feels super weird. No marching...dun hav to wake up early and stuff. Guess im still not used to life being switched back to normal bahs. But i've got to admit...i miss my frens. Eunice, Nellwyn, Michelle, Vivian, Jennifer, Christine, Cleo etc. Till now i haven't received the e-mail abt de bbq. Izit still on??

Yesterday parade was quite a headache. I love the sec 1s so much dat i realli hate scolding them, becuz to me they r all realli lovable and cute. But at times, some things they do realli piss me off, yet i can't bear de heart to scold them. Even if we do, we risk having them to skip cca. This is a big problem. Parade slacked alot...the company standard dropped sharply. The sense of urgency is gone. If something's not done, we won't hold for long. Some are not even afraid of us...they r indifferent even when we scold them. I miss the old 19th coy...the past 2 years when we're still powerful and enthusiastic. Wher did all the enthuism go now?

I finally passed A.maths!! Something to celebrate abt...but i hav smth on my mind dats trbling me now. Nvm abt dat. My friendship problems in sku r settled now. Yeaps. 2 more parades in cca. Next week is promotion and dedication!! I get to see my NDP baobeiis!! Miss them so so so much. Earlier today...went shopping wif Jieling. Bought present for Cheri and Mr Chia...my primary sku fav. teacher. Cute and lovable...veri xixin(dunno english word). The childrens' day present he gave us last time is so meaningful. Our class photo with a wood frame decorated hands on by himself. Every single one of them writing our values and characters. Customed designed. Hahas. We all noe he's bad in art. Dats wad made him so special. All these costs a bomb to me. My poor pocket. A big big burnt hole dat tks a long time to patch up again. Hahas.

Talked to my stupid GOH kor...he said UG in NDP looks comical holding umbrellas doing drills. Lols...i hav to agree myself larhs. Miss those times. He good lor...in GOH again nxt yr...unlike me...gotta prepare for o levels. I must've been realli insensitive at 1 point of time...i hurt another person by accident again. twice bitten...but i still haven't learnt. Haix...

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11:20 PM

Its been a week since NDP's over. Maybe i hate the feeling..but i guess i've gotten used to boredom. Lols. Realli miss NDP @ Marina Bay now. A list of what i miss...

1) Waking up early in the morning wearing full-u
2) Taking MRT to HQ wif SuetLian
3) Walking to HQ and crapping with friends we meet on the way
4) Uniform inspection
5) Taking the bus together and sleeping together
6) Walking into suntec convection hall
7) The attention we get while walking
8) The lunch (tho it tastes weird at times)
9) Meeting up wif Shiyun and Geraldine at the toilet
10) Truncated run in the afternoon, trying to listen out and memorize the commands
11) Opening umbrella together...showing out mass display
12) Braving the sun/rain together
13) Praises from the PC/PSM
14) Dinner time wif my frens
15) Playing and talking wif my NDP retards
16) Watching the cute GOH together
17) Marching down the road with pride
18) Standing on the barbecue pit - Marina pontoon, at times luffing at the back for some reasons
19) Running out
20) Marching back to suntec city
21) Aircon in suntec after the hot parade
22) Taking bus and making alot of noise together
23) Taking MRT back home and being retarded together
24) Retards at my area, Trainers, Ma'ams, Marshaller and the other participants
25) Meeting up wif Shiyun and Geraldine afta every Rehearsal

Missing all of ya. Looking forward to BBQ at HQ!!

P&C part 1

P&C part 2

P&C part 3

P&C part 4

P&C part 5

P&C part 6

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4:24 PM

To gain something...we have to lose something. Perhaps this statement finally reveals itself to be true for me now. I thought that going to NDP was the best thing that's ever happened to me frm the events that happened the past few years. So much tears shed...The best experience yet...the feeling of getting bonded closely to the friends ther, thru the trainings and also thru looking at all de handsome guys ther. Yet these experiences seems to have caused the gap between me and my friends in school. We began to draw further away...dun realli understand them nor do they to me as much as we in NDP there. However...the times in NDP onli add up to be abt 20 days. If anyone wld ask me, i'd say that i will never exchange NDP07 with anithing else, yet this irreplacable thing caused the gap between me and my frens. Maybe i wasn't being understanding afterall. I cried...2-3 times today. Once in class...once with Ruilin...

I admit that becuz of NDP, i negleted u pple. I can't go out with u guys. I saw the neoprint u 3 took together, I felt the sense of regrets not being able to go out wif ur. In all 3 of ur msn names...u put 3 of ur names and the same display pic. It was then i kindof felt that things are never the same like before. I felt something tearing me up right then. I promised to go out wif u guys...but wasn't able to find the time. Yet i remembered that i did say...after NDP, the nxt outing to b organized, pls tell me...so that i can join u guys. I noe there's a gap...maybe becuz of the diff interests we had. U 3 played the same online game...while my mind is pretty much more focused on NDP then...and reminscing the happy times ther nw. Ur went out on sunday...but didn't tell me. I was terribly hurt. Without asking me...u guys said that i wldn't b interested to go to cyber cafe since u're playing ur games ther. But this is precisely the fact of y i was angry in the 1st place. Why did u have to try to anticipate and intercept my thoughts? Deciding to shake this off i tried to ask u pple out this saturday...and u told me u duno weather u can go out. Can u imagine how disappointed i was? I held off shopping with my best friend in primary sku to make a day to go out with u pple, but ur rejected me w/o thinking. Forget it...i asked Jieling out. Yet today during PE...U were talkin abt going to cyber cafe this weekend. DIDN'T U SAY U ARE NOT SURE WEATHER U CAN GO OUT??!! What made me mre angry was 3 of u were talkin among urselves with my presence and i was left out. I really duno wad to say animre. I guess we lack communication. At the moment, i felt the intense fury within me...i felt realli jealous and left out. I guess I'm not part of u pple at all. I shld've sticked to my sisters instead. I tried to hold it back...the soccer ball was the 1 dat pushed me past my breaking point. Maybe i was jealous and selfish then. When u pple asked for the ball from me to giv it to Jingzuan becuz u pple said she was pitiful. Perhaps this is true...and neither have i thot of being jealous of her. But u said Jingzuan was ur fren. Then aren't i ur friend as well? It's not lyk i dun understand JingZuan...i noe abt her condition...dats y i tried to encourage her during sku NDP as much as possible. U can try ur best to understand what shes thinking...but y can't u pple do dat to me as well? For this whole day, i've been trying to avoid contact wif ur. Earlier on i tried to express hw i felt...but i got scolded by Opa instead. That was y i cried in class. I avoided 3 of u for both recess cuz ther r onli 2 paths, its either i duno wad to say to ur...or if u pple ask me abt what happened to me ealier on, i know i'd cry. I tried to repatch abit but i guess that little bit of effort i tried to make was cut off when i was scolded by her again lata during Geog class. U called me to stay back afta sku to talk abt this, but i prefer running away...i dun1 to cry again. Since u pple neva wanted to understand me lyk u tried to JingZuan b4...i guess u'd never understand how i feel, dats y i chose not to talk abt it. I've decided to withdraw myself from u guys. Maybe as friends ya...but i'll never be the same again....never as close again. I've not been a great fren to u 3, but the hurt i experienced...u'd never understand.

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4:14 PM

NDP'07 blown off now. Off to NDP'08. Feeling damn sad. Gunna miss every1 there. Morning...we went to HQ and got a new pair of gloves...headed off to Marina. We had our last lunch - KFC there. Took our umbrellas and headed for truncated run. Supporting contigents run, and then de full run. Cheered together. "NDP'07! WE MAKE THE DIFFERENCE! HAR" As a whole parade. Before the full truncated run...we played kiddos game...but wif eachother's company, we felt perfect. If only we could stay ther 4ever. We all went back to de holding area to talk to some of our sirs and had alot of fun. Though not feeling realli well...we went thru the whole thing as a parade. Had a Unity photoshoot. Hahas. Before truncated run, we wished eachother goodluck into marching with each other for de last time. It felt realli special. Before getting into the parade grnd, we did a cheer and it was the loudest cheer GB had ever done. We were always quiet and known to keep down, but this last day, we cant hold back ani longer. We shouted lyk never b4. Sang "stand up for singapore" During the dance loudly...attracting alot of attention. When it was our turn to march out...Every1 arnd cheered for us. The guard of honours and the trainers. We felt so honoured...lyk we belonged ther, but its all ending soon. Saw Mr Nathan close up for the 1st time. We ran out and marched our last steps together. Gunna miss those memories. We reached Suntec and hugged eachother, yet some of us cried. Maybe becuz its de end. We've trained for a long time...we've bonded for a period of time...nw the time for us to part is really torturous. We got the umbrellas home as a memory of NDP'07? Took photo wif afew G.O.H hahas. They r attention seeking sia...we took the MRT home and tried to play awhile more so as not to feel sad. But deep down...i felt the emptiness after NDP's ended. We're told abt having a barbecue during september and we cant wait till then. Went to Mc to wait for Shiyun, but she wasn't ther, we met this guy we addressed as "NG" meaning Noisy Guy. Sat together and talked. Thats de last of NDP'07. The pics will b moments to reminsce our times together. NDP'07 ALL THE WAY!!!!

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11:07 PM

These are pics took by my friend, cole, who went for NDP previews. Lols...so credits go to him. ENJOY HOR!!! THESE PICS R SHARP AND R EFFORTS HE MADE!!

supporting contigents march in

the formation NDP'07 by row A and B

row C is all formed up!!

March in of the colours. (not original colours though)
Navy and commandos following closely behind
Other colours and Airforce and Police following closely behind

some close-up marching

preparing to form-up, taking dressing

Colours and contigents all formed up!!
In attention position. All looking serious.
Senang Diri position...GOH hugging their rifles

inspection...

Firing of rifles

Wholesome image of firing of rifles

Hope u loved the pics. Cuz they r efforts. Okies. Not mine but my fren's. NDP'07 rawks yeah? Lols...U can c the pics bigbig when u click on them.

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9:35 PM

Yesterday is so tiring. Yet great, finally...after many many weeks of rainy days...we got to taste de sun again..though its abit hotter than we expected. But it kinda beats staying in the holding area n train or marching in e rain. Talked to some of the colour GOH and found them quite friendly...nt jux awesome in drills but friendly also...onli 1 thing...they luff lyk ghost. Shld luff lyk gentlemen mah...mre gentle...dats the image they gave us INITIALLY. But some of them r hot and shuai!! Hahas. my frens went kisiao. Tk umbrella poke me and whack me all e time. Lols. Then they mre huachi GOH than me lor. Yest photo shoot was awesome...Lols. I can't wait to get it...gunna b memorable!!! LOVE YA GALS SO MUCH!! Again...we played on MRT...but not so sure the nxt time we sit on it again...we'd play so happily. Haix...Guna miss these times for life...we're all pretty sure we'd cry when the actual day ends. But we promised to go out rite? (:

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11:16 PM