A trully sianed day. Can't believe Samuel is from PJC!! OMG!! That was the last thing i expected, not like i'm shocked or what but i thought he'd choose some mre reowned JC but i guess it doesn't really matter cuz he did well for his A'lvls anyway, hope i dun disappoint his expectations of me tomorrow with the differentiation/logarithm/indices test. 3 in 1 and it's 3 pretty heavy topics. And i hope i wun mk careless mistakes to fail my test yet again, i think i've caused enough disappointment and earned enough homework from it.
Actually, i find a striking resemblence between Samuel and Danny. The way they talk, the path they took, the course they took in university, ur presense reflects on his shadow. And god knows how long its been since i last thought or pondered so much over Danny... be-gone the emo! Don't make me play this torturous heart-mind game again.
Getting back back to track, I wonder if i'll survive through this disastrous day packed with something reddish along wif a 2.4km Napfa test right after that 2 periods of mind draining Amaths test. Is this a sign of dooms day nearing me? Oh dear, i'm too early to die in this way. Hope i'll also be able to grit my teeth through any obstacles tomorrow and complete that dumb run so i wun hav to run again. ((: I hope my determination burns stronger than my current limitations. Shan't go into detail or specific listing for my short-comings.
Been a pretty draining day for me but at least i finished most of the work i was expected to have done so i guess it's not that wasted of a day since i had a disastrous morning wif reds. Yeah i practically freaked out but i guess it's nothing new to me animre. =/
Really felt apologetic towards chinese teacher Mdm Chen. Today while in school, all i actually thought of was finishing my chinese essay. She gave us the qtn paper and used the 1 period 1st to explain the format and familiarise us and the essay shld b written during AEP, but i so wanted to get that piece of work done and go home quickly, i forgot about the most important thing. Still rings the guilty bell in me till now, after all the hard work she put into making the powerpoint slides even though she had to do till late during midnight forgo-ing her deserved sleep and rest after straining her voice to scream at pesky assholes in my class. Those extra work she didn't have to do, those extra stuff that could just wash her hands off of. Where is appreciation? Where is my conscience? And i was so blind to argue a little wif her, i could imagine how much i would be boiling and screaming if i were her but no, she was tolerant to us. Couldn't hav asked for a better teacher i admit, but her teaching style is wrong. Regardless of which, i think i still owe her an apology, whether it's through the heart, through words or through typing on this blog.
Plagued by the blindness caused by those around me, misled my conscience cuz of surrounding peer influence. Sometimes i can't help but respect some teachers for being able to tolerate a huge class even when we kept defying them time and again. And with honourable smart people of knowledge, there are also those who possess both impressively great wisdom and the same amount crap that's too much for their own good as well. Hahas. I'm not pinpointing ((:Labels: Apology, Obstacles, Randoms, rants, tired
