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♥ HER
WENXUAN
I'm a bigfan of JPop & JRock
So KAT-TUN appeals to me
♥ Kamenashi Kazuya (亀梨和也)
♥ JAPANESE ANIME
ANIME MARATHON
♥GUNDAM SEED
♥GUNDAM SEED/DESTINY
♥GUNDAM SEED/DESTINY - THE CHOSEN FUTURE
♥POKEMON ADVANCED/BATTLE FRONTIER
♥POKEMON BEST WISHES!
♥TSUBASA RESEVOIR CHRONICLE
♥TSUBASA RESEVOIR CHRONICLE SEASON 2
♥TSUBASA TOKYO REVELATIONS (OVA)
♥TSUBASA SHUNRAIKI (OVA)
♥OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOSTCLUB
♥K-ON!
♥K-ON! SEASON 2
♥CARD CAPTOR SAKURA
♥CCS MOVIE - FUUIN SARETA CARD
♥KATEKYO HITMAN REBORN
♥PRINCESS LOVER
♥BLEACH
♥SPECIAL.A
♥GUNDAM 00
♥GUNDAM 00 2ND SEASON
♥GUNDAM 00 MOVIE: A WAKENING OF THE TRAILBLAZER
♥CODE GEASS: LELOUCH OF THE REBELLION
♥CODE GEASS: LELOUCH OF THE REBELLION R2
♥KIN'IRO NO CHORDA: PRIMO PASSO (LA CHORDA D'ORO)
♥KIN'IRO NO CHORDA: SECONDO PASSO (LA CHORDA D'ORO)
♥07-GHOST
♥D.GRAY-MAN SEASON 1
♥D.GRAY-MAN SEASON 2
♥NYAN KOI!
♥KUROSHITSUJI
♥KUROSHITSUJI II
♥VAMPIRE KNIGHT
♥VAMPIRE KNIGHT GUILTY
♥KIMI NI TODOKE
♥KIMI NI TODOKE SEASON 2
♥PANDORA HEARTS
♥SUZUMIYA HARUHI NO YUUUTSU
♥SUZUMIYA HARUHI NO YUUUTSU (2009)
♥CLANNAD
♥CLANNAD AFTER STORY
♥SHAKUGAN NO SHANA
♥SHAKUGAN NO SHANA II
♥SHAKUGAN NO SHANA S
♥FATE/STAY NIGHT
♥FATE/STAY NIGHT - UNLIMITED BLADE WORKS MOVIE
♥BOTTLE FAIRY
♥SKIP BEAT!
♥CANAAN
♥ANGEL BEATS!
♥KAICHOU WA MAID-SAMA!
♥TORADORA!
♥TRUE TEARS
♥HAKUOUKI: SHINSENGUMI KITAN
♥HAKUOUKI: HEKKETSU-ROKU
♥ROMEO X JULIET
♥DURARARA!!
♥NARUTO
♥NARUTO SHIPPUDEN
♥NARUTO SHIPPUDEN MOVIE: BONDS
♥NARUTO SHIPPUDEN MOVIE: HI NO ISHI O TSUGU MONO
♥NARUTO MOVIE: DAI KATSUGEKI! YUKI HIME NINPOUCHOU DATTE BAYO!
♥SEITOKAI YAKUINDOMO
♥FULL METAL ALCHEMIST BROTHERHOOD
♥TO ARU MAJUTSU NO INDEX
♥TO ARU KAGAKU NO RAILGUN
♥MY LITTLE SISTER CAN'T BE THIS CUTE
♥BAKUMAN
♥FORTUNE ARTERIAL: AKAI YAKUSOKU
♥PSYCHIC DETECTIVE YAKUMO
♥AO NO EXORCIST
♥THE WORLD GOD ONLY KNOWS
♥THE WORLD GOD ONLY KNOWS II
♥SOUL EATER
♥ JAPANESE DRAMA/MOVIE
♥DEATH NOTE 1
♥DEATH NOTE 2: THE LAST NAME
♥KOIZORA: SKY OF LOVE
♥10 PROMISES TO MY DOG
♥LIAR GAME
♥LIAR GAME 2
♥LIAR GAME MOVIE: THE FINAL STAGE
♥YAMATO NADESHIKO SHICHI HENGE
♥OTOMEN
♥NOBUTA WO PRODUCE
♥GOKUSEN 2
♥GOKUSEN 3
♥GOKUSEN MOVIE
♥ONE POUND GOSPEL
♥YUKAN CLUB
♥SUSHI OUJI
♥HANAZAKARI NO KIMITACHI E
♥HOTARU NO HIKARI
♥HOTARU NO HIKARI 2
♥GOOD LUCK!
♥KUROSAGI
♥KAMI NO SHIZUKU
♥INU O KAU TO IU KOTO
♥CONFESSIONS (告白)
♥BLOODY MONDAY
♥BLOODY MONDAY 2
♥CODE BLUE
♥CODE BLUE SEASON 2
♥MR. BRAIN
♥BUZZER BEATER
If anyone is to go on a rampage, that person would be me. I've seriously been surpressing my emotions for the longest of times, but i doubt my "gas tank" can contain any more anger soon. It's been expanding 'cause i've been controlling. I should stop doing all these; talking about stuff that pisses me off and thinking about things that upsets me.
Super bad for health...
If people appreciates me, they will come to me naturally, i do not need to look for them, or so i believe. If people respect me, they will not betray my trust nor take my presence for granted. If i was even someone to them, they would not just disappear without a word.
I need my quiet time myself, and i need times where i completely shut off from the world. So what if i no longer cry, so what if i'm stronger mentally, i'm still human, i feel lonely, i feel empty, i feel exhausted, i feel lost, and i feel uncared for.
If only theres a someone out there who'd look out for me, who'd care for me, who'd show consideration for me, whom i can entrust my heartfelt stories to....
If only...
It's getting chilly within my stomach, it's getting rainy within my heart. But i'll just have to bear with it till the end, and believe that happy endings are blessed to those who patiently wait, continuously wait; though they've lost faith.
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I got scolded...hahaha...
That if i am truly unhappy, i shouldn't supress it. If i'm tired of life, i shouldn't act as though i'm enjoying it, that if i feel like crying, i should just bawl my heart out.
That he feels that my current style of living now is like a cover for myself. That he doesn't understand me anymore, that my current "on the cover" life is disturbing 'cause it's clear i'm hiding alot of things.
All i can say is, if u don't understand me, then don't try to. It doesn't help. I have my reasons for keeping quiet. And i don't deny to all out there, that i'm living in this psychological struggle, but i'd also like to say that i do not need help.
Crying is a sign of weakness, and i will neither bow nor submit to anyone anymore. Dependence is a sign of weakness, it bounds me from growing and i don't need anyone to lean on. So what if i'm indeed lonely? I just need some getting used to.
I don't need a pillar, knowing that it'll disappear eventually. That's why there's this need to control my emotions and actions, to supress this temptation of finding someone to support me.
