I had this impulse to rush out to the road and see if any of those cars passing by would just run over me and end this pathetic life of mine, but being who i am, i just couldn't carry such an act out. Then, i felt this desire to just cut a slit on my wrist and look at the way my blood is oozing out just like how i feel like my tears are yearning to. The sudden outburst of such mixed emotion is completely drowning me, and i've never thought that i would have to go through such a mental delimia. I've been spacing out....and the immediate causes are the devils of hesitant that are fighting within me.
And, i cherish every single friendship...but whether or not the other party feels the same is no longer within that of my control.