Self-drawn rose and for the 1st time...coloured. :D
Years and months passed i guess. Was only sec 2 then....and it's probably where everything started. You've asked me this particular question which i've never been able to give you a clear answer with but right now, i think i've already came down with a conclusion of everything. I am able to give you a definite answer with absolutely no doubts in my mind but i'm just not mentally prepared for it. For anything that may emerge out of it. Afterall, if i were to openly make a decision, someone's bound to emerge scalthed from the whole string of events. Blame it on myself, for being so undecisive in such things. For letting another wait, for stirring up false hopes, for not following my heart in the first place. Self-denial never solves anything, they only put off the problem or accumulate with time to make things swell up and become worse...such that it's gonna turn out very ugly sooner or later. For now...silence is golden.
I've never once thought that i would turn out to be constantly thinking about you like presently....and it's never crossed my mind that you'll somehow be my pillar of support until...i started missing you with every moment you're not around...
Self-drawn rose and for the 1st time...coloured. :D