Ask me why am i posting at this time and i wouldn't even b able to giv u a reply. Just didn't feel the need to continue staying at the arcade...i'm damn tired of life itself and now even mre so after everything i was told by Shiyun. She was right...if they cared, they wld've made it a pnt to remember...but it appears that they don't.
How did things come down to this state today? I really think that things wld've been a whole lot more peaceful if the connections didn't expand...this may really reduce the amount of hair i've had fallen over the days. There are those who are unaware of yesterday and i don't blame them for that...but there are also those who remembered and chose to forget. I'm not aching over the fact that i wasn't invited to the said outing....i was just disappointed that those who knew of the date didn't send me even a message. A simple wish wld've made me contented. A belated wish would've as well. But if you onli wish me that upon looking at this post, then i'm terribly sry but it serves no purpose at all. Wishes come from deep down the heart, wher a person really bothered to remember your veri special day. But this day no longer holds it's significance to me...cuz it's just a day to get me back to reality and take a good look at the pple and things that are happening arnd me. I don't belong...
I won't cry at the outcome of it like i did before again....cuz i've taken a good look at the current situation, and now i know that i'm the root of all these causation. Yes...i'm a two headed snake...take it in or leave it. I've had enough of name callings...and i realize that this addressing was pointed towards me as well. What can i do? Reverse time? Or explain things? Who knows what a human's mind is thinking right? Yes i'm a backstabber...come on...taint my name more! I've had enough...
But with the way things are going, i don't think i'm even in for a break. I'm tired....honestly tired of life itself. Just hate me...go on. Cuz i'm starting to hate myself as well. And also starting to hate the fact that i'm living, and myself for the fact that i've chose to put all these as part of my life.
Last but not least...to a certain someone. I'm never gonna tell u anything again. Cuz it seems as though u can't keep anything to urself...and telling u something is like publicising it openly. Thinking abt these things will really shorten my life by a whole 10 years i feel...
