When i woke up, i found 1 of the darlings like this. Isn't it cute?? ^^
Ok nvm back to the main topic, i found that i've been so badly hypnotised by you that it's starting to come to the point where i start to think abt myself, abt hw i'm way too undeserving to b wif u. Lack of confidence is flooding back, i'm still scarred...i'll accept this fact as it is. Like i said, i emerged badly scathed from the previous encounter and the memories are pretty haunting come to think abt it. Assumptions, thoughts, guessings are the mother of MY screw ups. And i think perhaps u might never know of how hurt i was by ur words...they cut me like scalpers do...
Met wif the same few to arcade yest, for the whole day. I believe i've perhaps also said how pocket burning it can become wif every trip there =(( Perhaps many would've realized how emo i've suddenly became yesterday, can i just put it simply that my mood's been terribly sunk into an unpreventable state the moment i see her face?? Nvm forget that...just think of Xuan here as a girl who's forever smiling and giggling...which sadly, is not the case.
Ran away from AEP today, something i've wanted and been so prompted to do for a long time now, and it gets me thinking whether this moment of thrill really is something addictive like kor said. I do have this little temptation to run away from school completely for tomorrow, but wif little guts, i've never found enough courage to do something so drastic (at least to me) for now.
Lastly, i'll end just like every other time i've blogged, wif a statement i've been meaning to put up which actually drove this sudden want and need to blog within me...
I hate flirtings...I hate flirts, and I hate pple who flirt back...
