Hey pple, it's been some time since i actually camwhored. Nope i didn't trim my hair, i merely clipped it up. Do i look different in anyway?
I know, i look lyk i hav lesser hair... =.=
And this was given to us some time ago by our lovely Mrs Chan ^^ she's always the best, most awesome and most respectable teacher in my heart...
'cause whether u know it or not, in one way or another, she's changed my life dramatically and pulled me up onto my feet to excel in everything i've done. Thanks for the lovely card, it's really motivational to me and i'll keep it forever ^^
Speaking abt motivational cards, Why did i bother abt giving motivational messages out to everyone anyway? I spent lesson hours and after school time to actually write them out and decorate them. They may look simple but it took alot out of me to make 12 pieces of it out...Do anyone even care? They just smile and be happy for 1 day, throw the message aside when they return home, and the nxt day, forget all abt it and think of it as just a piece of paper...
How much is friendship worth? If love doesn't work for me, i'll concentrate on friendships. But if even friendships doesn't work for me, then i don't know how to live wif it. Life sure has installed a number of ups and downs for me, i feel horrible. I don't know where should i turn to now, O lvls is just ahead of me, and i'm glad to always hav my understanding besties wif me. But sometimes i don't know what i'm actually thinking...
perhaps i'm really at wrong, perhaps i really am in no position to shed any tear at all, i drew away from them myself, and now i pay the price. It was meant to be a sister's gathering wasn't it? That was why we all signed for it, isn't that the reason? Why am i replaced by pple who aren't sisters at all?
Do we always get out way by sticking closely to people, dragging people away and telling them all ur secrets? Do u always get ur way by forcing ur fnds onto pple? Do u always get ur way just cuz u want it to? Yes, i've never been close to u, or rather, i've never been as close to sisters as before, perhaps becuz i'm afraid that my class frens might feel uncomfortable wif pple they're not familiar wif. I guess that's why my place is already filled by someone else. Then again, i remembered saying this once...
Times past, people change, hearts change...
What can u do when things progress to this stage then?
Sit aside and mop around in dark, thinking abt what led to all these...all these thinkings are a pain. Really.
Prelims are coming, perhaps i should brush these friendship nonsense to one side and start to act like a selfish girl from now on, focusing on my future. Afterall, i no longer believe in eternity, in friendship or love. All can do to protect myself, is to excel myself...
selfishness kills, but it's because of circumstances and happenings that evolved me into a human with such a mentality...
I know, i look lyk i hav lesser hair... =.=
And this was given to us some time ago by our lovely Mrs Chan ^^ she's always the best, most awesome and most respectable teacher in my heart...
'cause whether u know it or not, in one way or another, she's changed my life dramatically and pulled me up onto my feet to excel in everything i've done. Thanks for the lovely card, it's really motivational to me and i'll keep it forever ^^
