While some problems are solved, others arises. Perhaps those like Jeremy came back? Yeah i know, what's the pnt? What been the past is the past, but he's been telling me tonnes that he shouldn't hav been since he already hav another gf now, yeah breaks my heart but i know i can't tie him down forever, and he talked as if he wanted to start over, and that he didn't mind breaking wif his current gf cuz he felt pained wif the way i'm treating myself now. I need a break from such retardness. Now i'm falling ill cuz of eating and sleeping disorder, oh great. What more has life installed for me in future?
It's quite a sin to say this but i hav to admit, i loved the care and concern showered even though it's deeply wrong for a guy to say that he likes his ex mre than his current-gf. I know this is a let down to the girl he's with now, but for now, at this painful time, i need the concern and care. I know it's all so wrong, but for once, i want to be a selfish being. Imagine the care and comfort of someone aching for you, yet i know that i don't deserve such attention from the guy whose heart i've once broken. Yeah and it may be too late for the both of us to say this, if only we could turn back time, we might be able to cherish eachother better. But it's all too late. Even if there's gunna be a possibility, i can't see myself being in another relationship again...at least nt anytime soon.
I want to let go of my last bit of hesitation, i want to release the pain that's been held within me for some time now, i want to forget my past, i want to move on with life. So many wants, yet so little solutions and ways to go about approaching this clause, now i understand why people suicide.Labels: hesitant, hurt, pains, rants
