Been so busy and tired the past few days i feel lyk i'm falling sick soon, irritated nose and feverish feeling, urges to vomit etc. KNS working so hard now, just cuz of that dumb O lvls thingy. ARGHHH!! I must take a break 1 of these days, pushing myself so hard is not the way to go for now, really scared this motivation will burn out fast like last year. Happy to report A1 for Chem!! YAY!! And for the next Emaths test, i'm gunna strive back the A1 that rightfully belongs to me long ago back again! It's supposed to be mine, DARNNIT!! I must kick the habit of careless mistakes again, but say, i must've been careless the previous times cuz i was quite mentally exhausted so part of my brain shut down during the day of the test. Chinese passed and that P.Geog was quite a pity. I missed by 1/2 a mark to get my Distinction! ARGH!! I guess i was a little over confident before the test but hey, who am i to blame? All i can do is just continue to work harder so this slacker's attitude must be depleted totally!! I'm falling ill soon, someone save me!
Been in my worst moodswings recently. Get angry, worked up, sad, emo and mixed feelings of jealousy from time to time out of absolutely nothing at all. Getting jealous at friends who does better than me and getting angry with them even for minor minor stuff. Sorry peeps. Been really tired and heating up, too many things have been a real pain in the neck for me these days. For those pple out there who wants to make trouble for me, sorry but i have absolutely no mood, no interest, in no condition and no state to cradle for ur nonsense and rubbish so pls keep your shit to urself before i spill everything out on you when i explode. Fair warning from me? You wouldn't want to see me flaring up ((: I can be nice in public, tolerant and seems like a nice person for you to pick on, but if you tick me off while stepping on my tail 1 day, don't say sorry by then. People say "people are capable of doing absolutely ANYTHING when they are angry" so don't push ur luck, boy. I feel the need to scream out my frustration onto someone, who'll be my victim??
I need to get another top i think, since i haven't been got ani nice tops to wear on day 3 of newyear for my aunt's birthday at some high-class place AGAIN!! So not my type =/ I'll continue working hard cuz i won't give up and you people should know what i'm striving for for distinctions. ((: Emaths, P.Chem, SS/Hist, P.Geog and hopefully P.Bio if i work hard enuf.... B3s are open to Amaths, English and definitely for P.Bio cuz i'll start to work really hard to understand all the concepts and remember everything soon. I can't say i'm all that strong in that subj but when i studied it last yr, i felt like i could actually do it, it's just whether i want to or not but since i discovered it so late, i was kindof running short of time last yr. DARN! And my Chinese?? =/ perhaps a B4/C5?? Not expecting much since i've been doing badly since my Pri 3. Heh.
Today's parade if a total energy depleter. Dammitly tired but, hey?? I'll be tking all these ridiculous, unneeded stress for the next 2 mnths before i bag the CCA pnts, testimonial records and bonus pnts i've been working so hard for and just run. Yesterday's running shld hav an effect on my hurt knee joint and it hurts just to do drills when i put stress on it so i guess i wasn't well performing up to my standard cuz of that ridiculous pain. Darnnit! I have so many resolutions, targets and goals for the year so i hope to achieve them all. Damn, since when have i been such a far-sighted perfectionist?! On areas i din do too well in the past, i hope to brush up before my secondary school life comes to a full-stop this year end. No doubt bad memories exists, but i'd rather make the most out of it now and keep only the good ones so Boo-has, SHOO!! Today was 1 of my worse days, school whole day with NO RECESS and a guitar lesson right after school leaving 45mins break before having AEP and rushing up to toilet to change into Full-U within 15-20mins before running to GB gathering area and fall-in. How tiring can life get??!! On interesting note, i noticed this in the music room, look at the photos!
Get my pnt?? When will they learn to stop being so cheapskate and just change the piano?!?! It's an essential thing and i don't think it's unaffordable for the school since they constantly ask us for donations from time to time. I shall end my long-winded post here, bye.
