Regret?? Perhaps one of the worst words to use after commiting a mistake. Yeah, but why did i have to take things this far? Why did i have to make myself worse than before? As far as i know...loving you IS a tragedy to me. I cried, yet i dont deserve to, do i? Your replies and messages sends happiness to me, flutters to my heart, yet cracks in my wound. It's both bitter and sweet. But over all, was more of pain. Isn't everything i've done in the past obvious enough to illustrate my feelings out to you? Perhaps after whatever that's happen, people's point of view towards me would change. XuanZ is not simple, she's not innocent, she's not cheery like she seems, she's not flawless, she's not happy, she's not confident, she's not who you think she is. She loves him and it's the dummest thing she's ever done in her life. She cried for him and it's the stupidest thing to react with for him. She's fallen for him unknowingly in the past and it's the biggest regret for her to not have known it sooner, not being able to tell him straight in her face. Now all she's left with are her memories and her pathetic tears. SHE WANTS TO MOVE ON!! But you clung onto her heart and now it's stuck in your hands. You killed the lively XuanZ within your own hands. If i knew that loving you would be so hurtful, so difficult to let go...i would've seen that i'll never fall for you at all. She's even resorted to one of the worst methods one could take to forget this pain. Now this method left a scar in her heart, left a nightmare in her mind, left a regret in her life. 爱上你就好像是割伤了自己。想起你时，伤口相似有新的裂缝，好痛. A couple of pictures i drew to make up for the long period of time i stopped sketching. May not be like the rest, may not seem like normal, may not be to your liking, but i draw from my feelings.
This is the her in the inside...
While the happy her consealed this side flawlessly
Who would've thought that loving you would be
such a
TRAGEDY?!
No Girl Cries for
No Reason...
You
stabbed my heart right through so
brutally!
Now you see the
big picture of her life
This is a random pic I took with shiyun while doing to suntec/marina few days ago. The placed where it held so much of memories to us is now back under construction, it's now back - cold. It's now blocked and out of bounds.
XuanZ will pick herself up ok? She will take time to heal from all these. But what's impossible in my life? That's to ever bring myself to hate him. ((: Thanks to u fella out there who's always seeing me through ensuring the smile on my face.
Who would've thought that loving you would be
No Girl Cries for No Reason...
You stabbed my heart right through so brutally!
Now you see the big picture of her life
This is a random pic I took with shiyun while doing to suntec/marina few days ago. The placed where it held so much of memories to us is now back under construction, it's now back - cold. It's now blocked and out of bounds.
XuanZ will pick herself up ok? She will take time to heal from all these. But what's impossible in my life? That's to ever bring myself to hate him. ((: Thanks to u fella out there who's always seeing me through ensuring the smile on my face.